by Moto Butaj on Fri May 05, 2017 7:44 pm
"No." Butaj says quietly. Most of his emotions have worked themselves through during her approach. The most prevalent, the one he couldn't easily fight, were longing, regret and guilt. Longing for the future he genuinely wanted. Regret that it wasn't happening. And guilt that he has made promises which won't be fulfilled now, regardless of why it was so. His loved Yuki dearly, but there was a place in him that carried another affection, affection of a different kind. Butaj was too young and too unenlightened to figure out why it was so and how it really worked. But the thought that this may be their last meeting filled him with unbearable dread. "...Misa is no prize to be won, but a woman to cherish in every way by a man who she finds worthy. Butaj was ready to fight for a chance of this until... other choices were made. By Yuki, by Butaj and by Misa. To claim any right to do what Misa speaks of would just be... very bad. Butaj can't do this even if the desire to... hasn't gone away. He will lose this duel, or if he by some miracle wins he will just take Misa to his yurt for music and tea. But for all the faith he's broken, he wants to keep this one. So that Misa can take out on him that his heart has gone to someone else." He bowed his head.
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