(Day 7, EE) Blind Spot (Misa's Room, Closed)

[Tonbo Misa]

Misa shook her head. "That isn't something I can answer for you. It's something you'll need to figure out on your own."

[Moto Butaj]

"Something Butaj will need to figure out on his own." He repeats with a quiet voice, in order to not forget. He doesn't exactly like 'on your own' right when he is about to get married, but he accepts it with a nod.His hands stop seeking her for now. "It will take a while."

[Tonbo Misa]

"It always does. It did for me. And it is always something you have to do on your own, no matter the people around you. It can be hard, and lonely."

[Moto Butaj]

"Butaj does not enjoy lonely things too much. Loneliness has been always something creeping on Butaj when he has not been making an effort not to be." He confesses.

[Tonbo Misa]

"I understand. Take it a little at a time. Find a peace in that time alone. It won't be easy, but it's there, I promise." She smiled softly.

[Moto Butaj]

He nods several times. "Some time alone." It may be all he registers and he slowly pulls away.

[Tonbo Misa]

Misa reaches up and gives him a small flick on the forehead. "And I don't mean to sulk or brood. Find peace, understanding, not problems."

[Moto Butaj]

He smiles at that even though his thoughts are as colorfully confusing as goat shit in the wake of eating too much carrot, spinach and beets at the same time. And that's still more orderly than his heart. "Butaj is trying, Tonbo-sama!" He shakes his head, then snarls at himself. "Peace and understanding, got it."

[Tonbo Misa]

Misa gave a soft sigh, stroking his cheek. "Slowly, slowly... always so quick to emotion, my poor Butaj-kun..."

[Moto Butaj]

"Butaj is Butaj. Too much emotion. For Misa, for Yuki. Can't contain it all, not fitting in one Butaj. Must make love, sing, play music or ride to share, to let out." He takes her hand, kisses inside her palm, then tries to bring it back to her side of reality but the wrist wavers not far from his face. "Butaj must do something." He starts to reluctantly scoot away, but with their hands still connected.

[Tonbo Misa]

Misa didn't stop him, but she kept their hands connected still. "I know. I hope you find the answers for what to do, without tearing yourself apart."

[Moto Butaj]

In the frenetic moment, Butaj for a moment sees clearly, and speaks calmly. "Butaj doesn't want you to hurt, to be alone and abandoned, and yet knowing your heart he knows that what he has done and is doing leads to that. Butaj's heart is lead and copper, but yours is gold. There is no way before Butaj that does not lead to breaking delicate, beautiful things." He pauses, disentangling their hands. "In a few days Butaj will face you like he promised. And you better take it out on him then, for everything." He rises and storms out.

/exit